Like the hummingbird, we need to go back to the well often to have the fuel we need to live a full life. When we don’t, we don’t flourish.
I have been gone a while, not by desire but through acceptance of my circumstances. It took me a while to
get to acceptance; it happened rather begrudgingly. I don’t know about you, but wondering if there have been
times where you needed to do just the very basics, like eating, sleeping and the in the moment interactions
of home and work? That is the essence of my life the last several months.
I love the connecting, writing, sharing and offering this blog allows me the space to do. However this winter and now into the spring, I have needed to “fill up my cup” with slowing down, ease, less on my self-imposed
to-do list along with attending to my health and the holistic health and relationship tending of my husband, daughter and coaching clients.
All of my grand plans for my projects to be consumed for those who need them have been put on hold. I know
that things unfold as we and others are ready for them, but our minds (rather our ego patterns) have other plans. The offerings for healing food and weight worries and deeper soul health that have been bubbling for so long
have needed my body to be in alignment with my heart and mind.
I think this is a common occurrence, especially among us women folk. We live in organized chaos for a long time, trying to be our best at home and work that something has to give and the body cannot take the fight or flight
without saying “enough”. For some of you, it may be restricting and binging and obsessive exercise as it once for me that distracts you from your truth until it just no longer works and you seek out another way.
For me the last 4 years since my daughter was born, it was the non-acceptance that I have to take a more deliberate, focused pace vs the constant movement of accomplishment
that have gotten me here; an adrenally- compromised body that contained a heart deeply committed to service
to those wanting to be free from weight and food worries to be who they really are, yet not able to provide as
much as I think I could.
In January, I did however, finally surrender that for me to really thrive in going with the next step with my ability to give, I need to give myself the care that I want to give to you. So just like I have been encouraging you this 1 1/2 year, I had to get clear and seek out the support I have needed to heal.
Here is a peak into what my self-care has looked like:
–Experimentation with what foods and levels of hunger and fullness I need to get to to support optimal energy and adrenal health
–Mostly following the knowledge I have about eating and supplementation for adrenal fatigue and my
accupunterist’s recommendations. I have not tried to be perfect (ahem, coffee) but really follow the wisdom of feedback that my body gives to know when I can push it and when I really need to listen. It’s been a fun mix of east and west traditions that has done the trick.
-Almost weekly accupunture appts that has gotten the energy flowing again and has really been a serene
environment for remaining in alignment with my work and family goals.
–Asking for and receiving time for myself, usually around 3 hours a week to get in a yoga class and read or putz
around. My husband has been amazing and it has felt really good to receive, something that until recently would not allow myself to accept. Very opposite from what the old narrative in my head would say “you have time, you should be working, cleaning, being productive, blah,”. If you don’t have a supportive partner, I highly recommend you reach out, hire out or trade gifting watching kids, running errands, etc with a friend. If you can’t figure out a solution to take the load off, email me.
Not all of this I did in one feel swoop in January. I started with dropping the excessive to-do list and openly saying I need help and healing and since have been adding the rest in to where now, I can
tangibly feel more energy (not 100% yet but getting there), clarity of mind and enthusiasm for my projects for you and re-connecting via here!
Thank you for hanging in there with me and remaining part of my tribe. In gratitude, I made an audio for you. It’s about staying focused on what you really want when food and body worries popped up. You can get them at the bottom of this page. Just press on the yellow audio acrobat button.
I also want to let you know about what I am super excited about (as I do my best to honor my body 🙂 that’s coming your way this next full year.
Those projects that have been in the inbox for most of the past year are nearly ready for birthing.
*Attuned Eating for Attuned Living 8 Week On-Line Course. Each week is a different topic from learning Attuned Eating to intro to decoding I feel fat to making peace with your body plus lots more. There will be a weekly live call with me as well!
*An on-line Decoding Food and Body Talk Workshop
*Attuned Eating Meal Planning Guide with Recipes
*A membership site with a different topic, readings and audios each month.
*And more in-depth attuned eating and attuned living coaching with different offerings to meld
–integrative nutrition for women’s health (including issues like adrenal fatigue) with intuitive eating principles
–emotional connection facilitation (help you learn to “be” with how you feel with tools you can use at home)
–using the power of the enneagram personality patterns to understand and release the stories that keep us
using food or weight loss wishes to cope.
I would love to hear from you. What support or questions related to attuned eating, breaking free from emotional eating, recovery, body image, emotional and body wisdom might you have? I am here and wanting to hold space for your desire for your freedom and peace.
With gratitude,
Tracy
